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It was a Setup

It was a SETUP…

“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” Proverbs16:9

On June 12, 2017 I lost a job that I had secretly been wanting for two years and held for four years.  I was so in love with the mission and work of this organization that it literally broke my heart when I was told my position was being terminated.  Through the two positions that I held with this organization, I was able to meet some really amazing people, monitor some great programs in Baltimore City and literally launch some of my own dreams in programming efforts.  However, after my first stint with unemployment, I learned that “all things work together for the good of those who love God.”

The very next morning, I was in a head-on collision but GOD! I walked away from that accident with damage to my vehicle, but with all my limbs intact.  Unemployment is like experiencing death.  You go through all of the stages of denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.  Denial and depression are probably the roughest two stages to endure.  Denial had me laying on a beach in Jamaica, bathing in the beauty of God’s creation.  But depression had me lying in bed, not eating and crying myself to sleep.  Then BOOM…I was looking at my bank account and acceptance of my situation hit me hard.  I immediately began to budget how I was going to make it.  Thankfully, not only did I have an amazing support system, but I had invested properly and knew I had enough funds to cover no longer than 6 months of unemployment.  Of course, when month 4 started rolling around I was questioning God like, “umm Lord, do you see my bank account?” I had been on several interviews and wasn’t hired, I was sending emails to my connections and there was no traction but, one crazy Friday afternoon in an airport headed to Atlanta, God bestowed upon me his favor.

Lessons Learned

  1. “Trust” is an action.  You have to do more than say, “I trust you Lord,” but you have to put your faith in action and actually believe that God is working it out on your behalf.
  2. Amazing things can be produced out of pain – I can’t say that anything that is remotely amazing in my life hasn’t come as a by-product of pain that I have endured.
  3. When you get to the level of “completely trusting God” you live with humble expectation. Ask less about why God loves you and focus more on the fact that He is completely in awe of you.

Interactions with people can leave you feeling disappointment so, it’s understandable why “trusting” can be scary. I’ve grown accustomed to hearing, “if you don’t have any expectations, you can’t get hurt.”  However, when you are walking in the will of God for your life, you have to understand that even in your human disappointment, God has a bigger and better plan for your life.  I don’t know why God decided it was time for me to leave a position/organization that I loved, but hunni after 7 months of unemployment my Comeback was real!  Just like Job, who literally lost everything know that when God sets you up, if you Trust Him, your Comeback will be even greater!

Trust God,